25 days to Go

wooow. itse been almost three months since I came back from Zambia.
must admitt it has been hell and an experience which most of my days is so painful that I wish I never even stepped my feet at the Zambian soil 24/7 2009 but yet again in every lesson there is a blessing and I am constantly reminded about that.

Today is wednesday and I have 25 days till school starts. Switzerland, le Bouveret, Culinary arts management. This whole process has gone to fast and so expensive that it has left me with nothing.

I will bascially noo. I am bascially going to one of the worlds most expensive schools with no pocket money and I cant be asking my mother everytime I am in need and it is unfair to her, and I now have to live with the conseqeunces of my actions. in short take responsibility for my actions.

Its tough and it doesnt go a single day where I think, Lord will I even be able, how will my other peers look at me, will I manage? is there anything, will it change? constant fear of how things will turn out and if I will have the strength to put it all together.

I have come so far, never would I think I would end up in Switzerland when all along I wanted to go to South Africa, but there is a bigger reason to why I certainly am going the road.

now I am just watching Tv... thinking and appreciating each minuate that I am not doing anything cause I know within days hell will begin.

woow dreams are so hard to achieve and the road there is soo rocky and uncertain that I wonder how many times we do give up unconciously..